I would like to preface this by saying, please tell me if I need to get a grip. I’m not in the best mental state so I could be extremely over reacting.
Today I received an email that made me feel
somewhat inadequate, I do the best I can and always work extremely hard. The email states that he was doing a learning walk, unbeknownst to me. Annoyingly 5 mins before I needed to be up, the printer jammed because the person in front was doing booklets. (Admittedly, this is bad planning on my behalf and I should have done it the night before but my sister has had covid so I’ve been running around doing errands.) I arrived in my classroom bang on time but things weren’t set up, my fault, I know, however no children arrived so I kept and eye on the door and quickly set up. I’ve never done this before. I always ensure I’m prepared the night before.
The email about this unannounced learning walk effectively read “Here is some feedback I wanted to give you. I performed my learning walk, you arrived late, room was not ready, lesson was a slow start, can I remind you of the expectations around lesson start times. We must be prepared at least 5 mins before hand to allow a swift start to the lesson with no hiccups as this is a non negotiable. I’m aware you had excellent feedback earlier on in the week from , and I know this isn’t something you do, but I wanted you to be aware for the rest of this weeks planning”
As mentioned, I’m never ever late, this was the one occasion I was dealing with a printer issue, and, I’m worried about my sister so my mental health isn’t in the right place. I’m always at least 20 mins ahead of schedule, but that day I was not on top form.
I also want to add. I try and do my best to go above and beyond to help others in the team if we fall behind and I’ll always do my best to help or stay over late.
Honestly, I would much prefer people to talk to me face to face about feedback they have, rather than do it all on email and pretend nothing was said.
I feel the need to talk about this to my manager, because, I feel this could have been done in person, I accept ofsted is looming and we need to brush up, but the tone of the email has really thrown me. How do I approach this?