Mental health

[Chrissy1986]

Sorry I posted original in the wormg place and couldn't delete it. **

I'm really struggling with my mental health. I have just started a new job after quite a traumatising experience at my last job (injured by students). I am in the process of a divorce and seeking therapy for PTSD.
My new job is amazing. This kids are lovely, the staff are wonderful but I feel broken. I can't keep up with the demands and a few weeks ago I started feeling very down. I'm being ill every morning, not sleeping and my blood pressure is way high. I'm suffering with anxiety and stress and feel very trapped. I know I should leave the teaching profession, I'm just not strong enough for it anymore. I really don't want to have to go back and face the music. I feel I've let everyone down but I just cannot cope anymore. If I don't quit now, I feel my mental state will become very bleak indeed.

How do i go about this? I've let everyone down, I know I have, and I wish I'd come to this school a year ago when I was in a better place.

Has anyone else had to quit, to focus on their self?
Thank you.

I’ve found practising Mindfulness has really helped my PTSD. There’s some apps - Calm and Headspace, they really help, try it.

Hello,

Firstly I am so sorry to hear you have had such a difficult time. I have also had very challenging time in teaching and my last post was dealing with students with very challenging behaviour. I got to the point where I ended up in a&e as i thought I'd had a heart attack, (it was a panic attack) and I realised I couldn't go on any longer. I took a pay cut and worked in a college in the SEN department/ teaching assistant role for a year. A job then came up in a university working with students with additional needs. It's the best job I've ever had. Sometimes you have to take a step back to take a step forward. Life is too short to put your physical and mental health under strain constantly. If you can afford to I'd look at a change and see where it takes you. I am obviously a stranger on the internet, and know nothing about your personal situation, but it's good that you can recognise what will be best for you. I didn't realise that for a long time, or felt I was too much of a disappointment/failure, embarrassment to make the change. But I am thriving in my new role, my confidence is slowly rebuilding and I'm remembering what I'm capable of. I wish I'd done it sooner. I sincerely hope you find your way with this, and do what is right for you long term. Much love.

A LONG TIME AGO NOW BUT HOW DID THINGS WORK OUT FOR YOU?