I am part-time teacher (0.8), and I've been passed over for two TLRs in my department, and I believe it's because I was unwilling to do the positions full-time. Both positions were given to full-time male current members of our department. For one position, that I really did want and would have been great at, a much more junior colleague got it, and I've no real idea why. I'm very experienced, my results are great, feedback from students and colleagues is great, I'm (imo) a helpful, reliable team player (regularly share resources etc) lead on new initiatives and activities, including things directly relevant to the job we went for! I just cannot see why I didn't get it, because as far as I can tell the colleague they appointed has just survived his time at the school without really adding anything. That's understandable though, they've only been teaching a short time and are still finding their feet, it's not their fault at all. I'd never say any of this to anyone I work with, and I get on very well with my colleagues, but I do find the fact that the Head thought that he was a better candidate quite insulting. Even since he was promoted, I've added more to the department in terms of rolling out a new initiative that was my idea, when I don't think they've done anything yet bar a bit of extra admin. I was told I didn't have enough managerial experience to secure the role, but I don't buy that, as the more junior colleague hasn't either. It felt like they didn't want to tell me the real reason why I didn't get the job, and I can sort of see why. It's either because a) junior colleague has been making noises about moving to another school, b) I wasn't willing to go full-time, c) they don't like me for some other, unknown to me, reason.
So rant over, but WWYD? I feel like I'm not going to get a promotion unless I go full-time, as I know it's highly unlikely that a part-time TLR would be available at a different school. Has anyone made the leap from part-time classroom teacher to full-time with responsibility and found it OK? Or really regretted it? I like the students and my colleagues, the school is close to my home, and I don't really want to go full-time. I'm really worried about starting at a different school and hating it, but I'm sick of getting very little reward for everything I do, bar enthusiastic thanks. My HOF and Head are making noises about me doing all sorts of stuff for "experience", so I'm in a better position to apply for other roles. Tbh though I'm sick of doing extra for free, I've been doing that already. I feel undervalued and taken advantage of, but I don't want to leave in a huff and regret it if I hate a different school. AIBU for feeling this way? Is this just part of professional life and I need to get a grip?