I should be a third teacher after qualifying in 2018, however due to part time, fixed term roles I only finished my NQT last year. For the third September in a row I am going back to supply. I know COVID has had an effect on employment, I also live in a city with at least 50 -100 applicants per vacancy (I can’t move because of my children). I really am at a loss as what to do. I love teaching and I am told I am good at it (not outstanding) but I am really willing to try anything. All my reports and references show I am reflective, positive, and dedicated to my class and school. Last year a job came up at my school and someone with more experience got it - that was my feedback (head knew the applicant). This year it happened again although this time I messed up the interview - nervous and talked too much (my fault, I am not looking to blame). I don’t know long much longer I can search for jobs without hope that I will find something permanent. I am 40 so came to teaching late from a non-professional background. I think that maybe I am not really ‘teacher material’. I don’t won’t this to sound like a poor me post (I am not really that person). I am dyslexic and I was 32 before I went to university. I want to be a great teacher, do the best for the children in my care. I am starting to think the best might be me calling it a day or looking at different roles that support children to find their potential. Ideas on roles I could look into or an insight on how long my ‘dues’ need paying for would be gratefully received.