I've had a few rough weeks. I posted before about a bad observation recently. Turned out I had another "informal monitoring" that picked up some bad teaching as I got sucked into a hole helping a certain child and didn't move the learning on for the rest of the class!
It all came to ahead and my friend who did the informal monitoring forced me to talk to the head. It was a conversation that I had been working up to having but she forced my hand.
The conversation was about my current job share. She's a lovely person and we have worked together for two years now. But our ways of working are very different. Due to her taking on extra which is why we became a job share in the first place, she hasn't always communicated with me. We have a challenging class that needs consistency but I can often be told by the children that certain changes have happened. I have also never felt I had equal say with this class or the one before. Like I'm just cover. I think this on top of everything else this year has just added together in lots of ways. I basically had to say I'd rather not work with her again as a job share. My head agreed that I haven't come across as happy since my previous job share left and said she would change things up next year.
This is when I realised I really wasn't looking forward to another year of job sharing with this person and quite relieved that it was out in the open.
Just feels like we failed. It wasn't the worst of job shares by any means. I just hated saying I couldn't do it again. Unfortunately I won't find out what I'm doing until at the earliest middle of June.
Really considering going back full time.