I’ll try to keep this brief but again today I’ve come in from work and am in tears. I don’t know what to do anymore.
I work in SEN our school is very short staffed. At the start of the year I had a new class with a few violent children, an experienced member of my team left as she had had enough, I had classroom assistants so I was sent random untrained people for weeks which was quite stressful. Then I got hurt and had to take some time off. When I returned the HT told me I wasn’t returning to my class but being given a different role one where I could be supported more as they felt I was stressed. The teacher taking over had just joined the school. Since then I have been used as a classroom assistant to fill the gaps. For half of the week I’m the classroom assistant in the class I used to be teacher in. It feels horrible. Yes I still get paid as a teacher. The other classroom assistants resent me as I’m getting paid more than double what they are, the teachers resent me as I don’t have the planning they do, and I feel like management think I’m totally incompetent. Ive no confidence left and just want to give up completely. I’m waiting to see what happens for the new year, if I get a class of my own but if I don’t I feel I’ll have to leave.