Help me with my dilemma

[losingmymindiam]

I have recently returned to primary teaching in a state school after many years teaching secondary (Alevel). It has nearly broken me, I have a large number of SEND children and lots of behavioural issues. There is barely no money for support. This combined with the increasing expectations of planning, paperwork and so on has really taken a toll on my mental health and family life.

I have handed my notice in because I just can't face it anymore. I now find myself in a position where I need to choose my next steps. I can't really afford not to work.

I have the prospect of a primary teaching job in a private school or an office based 9-5 not term time only. I'm really struggling with the teaching or not teaching decision. I have done a pros and cons list and they balance each other out as the pay and holidays are better in the teaching role but the work load and hours and pressure will be less in the other. I still have school aged children so the holidays are an important factor.

Any advice?! (Not really sure what help anyone can give really!!) sorry it's so long!

[losingmymindiam]

I know it sounds like I'm poo point people's ideas but I have done supply before and I found it really stressful. Mostly about classroom management and no real job satisfaction. The hours were good though. I think I'm having a bit of a mid life crisis and I don't actually know what the heck I want!

[losingmymindiam]

*poo pooing

[luckybird07]

I used to teach A level and moved country and this year teaching upper primary has nearly broken me- the behavior of the boys has been so challenging and I am too soft. Can I suggest you go to the doc and get something for the anxiety because you just cannot think straight when you feel low/anxious. It will give you a boost and maybe enable you to try the private job first to see if that is doable.