Hi
I've name changed for this as I want it to be as anonymous as possible- I'm trying to keep things vague, but hopefully will provide enough detail to be helpful.
I'm a Secondary PGCE trainee part way through my second placement. I recently had an observation with the teacher who oversees all the trainee teachers within the school. The school is generally good and most kids are decent but this particular class contains a lot of "challenging" characters and I find them very difficult to manage.
As a result of the observation, I've been offered the opportunity to essentially swap this class for a different one. It seems like my uni tutor has also possibly expressed some concerns behind the scenes. I'd really like to talk to him, but it doesn't seem like he is going to be available this evening.
I really don't know what to do. Swapping to another class would almost definitely make my life easier! However, it feels like giving up/quitting, and whilst this class is difficult, I do feel at times I am making progress with them. I'm a bit concerned about the implications for me either way. If I do stay with this class and continue to struggle, I feel it could be held against me. However, what if I leave this class and struggle with the new class too? I'm also worried about how it will look to others in the department and the kids if I "give up" on them.
I'm already feeling really low confidence in this placement and I just don't know what to do.