Hi,
I am currently in my 2nd year of teaching Maths at secondary school (3 including my PGCE year) PGCE year was awful, I did school direct in a horrible school with v little support and despite managing it to the end, left with some lasting effects including anxiety and stress. I was fortunate however to get into a very nice school, it's took a while to adjust to not being yelled at and belittled when I first started but I managed it, passed my NQT year and now getting settled. I really enjoy the job most days, and for the most part stay on top of my workload. However I feel so lonely. I'm so busy through the day, my yr 7 form have endless mishaps and dramas, I spend my lunches on duty or running around, and I teach most days all day, with my three PPA hours a week dedicated to marking or planning in my own classroom. The school, however lovely, does not really have much of a staff room, we all just tend to stick to our own classrooms. My problem is I miss adult conversation and interaction! I come home at night, I go to tutoring most nights because the money isn't that good yet and then I have my own kids to spend time with, by which point I've had enough of bloody kids, so my own kids, the ones who matter most do not get my full attention, just me smiling on autopilot. I want to be happy to see them again and enjoy their stories! And even though the time off is nice - I can't afford any bloody holidays during them! And I end up feeling like I'm in work anyway as my kids have their mates around (some of who I teach because my son attends the school 😬😬)
I'm now thinking of leaving teaching at the end of the school year. I've made a commitment to my department and the kids I teach and I intend to see it through. I think if I go now, my degree in maths is still relevant, my transferrable skills are still fresh and I'm not trapped by any huge change in wages (I'm on M2).
But.. I studied part time for my degree, with some breaks for my babies over ten years, while working, all in the hope of becoming a teacher, I thought it was the answer to my dreams, and maybe in another dimension it is, just not right now. So now I DONT KNOW WHAT I CAN DO! People are so impressed I have a degree in Maths but I feel like I'm trained for nothing. I really want to work in a people focused role, I love building relationships and I want to use my analytical skills, solve problems, work on projects etc, before teaching I worked in call centres, in sales and in a lot of admin roles, including in the construction industry. I don't want to go back though as I don't want to feel I've wasted my degree.
Does anyone else have any experience of leaving teaching and moving on? Any advice? Am I doomed?
Thanks in advance 😁