Firstly, I realise you are probably run ragged at this time of year, so thanks in advance for any time you can find to answer for me. This is all going to be a bit long, and probably very outing, but I would really appreciate some advice.
I am 50, and started my NQT in September 2017 in an Outstanding "creative" academy. I had previously done a PGCE and not had very much classroom experience prior to that. My NQT year was hellish, extremely high expectations, very challenging class, no TA, and I felt like I never knew what I was doing. I was given support, and my colleagues were lovely, but the incredibly long hours, almost killed me in the end. After a really awful observation in Feburary I ended up going off sick, and leaving (I was the 3rd teacher to leave that academic year and the other two were experienced teachers).
After a few weeks at home I then went back to my previous career and have remained there ever since, enjoying the peace and quiet and certainty of actually knowing what I'm doing.
Recently I have started thinking back on my time at school and regretting that all of that study, time, money and energy were wasted. I used to do volunteer reading with local schools and really loved that, and used to love the group work I did during my school practice.
During some late night research of my old university I came across a study on the impact of Reading Recovery, written by one of my tutors. I can't actually find any job ads that mention Reading Recovery, so wondered if any of you know anything about it?
I thought I could do their training course and try to find work in a school as a Reading Recovery Teacher.
I feel so scarred by my time as a class teacher, I don't feel like I can go back and finish my NQT year. I assume that all schools now don't have the resources to give the NQTs lots of support, and I can't really afford to work as a TA to get more classroom experience.
Any links, advice or suggestions would be really appreciated. Thanks in advance.