Line manager was pretty much invisible throughout the year, despite knowing the state the department was in and the behaviour problems that were occurring across the school.
There were no whole school initiatives to follow really. The Facebook group for our subject is great and I've looked at the examiner's report and know we are teaching it right - assuming everyone is following SoW correctly, but it's hard to do QA when you spend all your time setting cover and trying to sort behaviour, with no support from above. There is certainly stuff we can change and we will, but I genuinely think the majority of our problems come from factors outside my control and unless they are addressed this will happen again next year to one extent or another.
I feel like the head doesn't rate me, appointed me because he had no choice and is looking for an excuse to stick the knife in. Now he has one. I've been looking for other jobs, but as a lp I can't afford to take much of a pay cut or work further away so it's very hard to find anything suitable.
The results are way below the students' targets, which were aspirational, of course. Some students have under-performed regardless of what their target was, and that is so disappointing, for them mainly, but we are in an area where they are happy with a 4 or 5 regardless (not all of them, obviously, but a lot). There were students celebrating getting 3s yesterday because they had always got 1s in mocks. I would understand if they had worked hard to get to a 3, but they were on 1s because they did no work. To be able to then pull a 3 out on the day shows that had they just worked moderately hard throughout the two years they'd have got decent grades. The ethos desperately needs to change.
I will have to go in today and try and see him as I can't get ready for next week without his answer to a question about a matter that should have been sorted before we broke up. It's utterly ridiculous, but I believe he was waiting for the results to answer me, and now the fact that he still hasn't got back to me is very ominous.
I just can't work like this...