If only I had listened.

[Whodunksakitkat]

I have been unwell for quite some time and have been spiralling ever downwards. Despite the advice I received on here and from my GP I have insisted on trying to keep going instead of taking time off. It all came to a head today when I completely lost it in a meeting. I am so embarrassed- I have made myself look like a complete idiot. I went in to the meeting thinking I had the support of my HOD but clearly didn’t. I don’t know how to move on from this and I am in bits. I keep thinking if I had been at home getting well none of this would have happened.

I'm really sorry OP. Can you go to the GP again ASAP?

Look after yourself x

Thank you. I have been signed off and have had my medication increased. HOD not happy that I will not be in for the next two weeks. Wanting to talk to me but I have said no not at the moment I am too ill.
I know I can’t make any big decisions until I am feeling better but I don’t think I ever want to go back.

I have been signed off and have had my medication increased. HOD not happy that I will not be in for the next two weeks. Wanting to talk to me but I have said no not at the moment I am too ill. Horrendous behaviour from your HOD. I wouldn't meet HOD without union representation and certainly not while you are signed off.