Dear God, I am at the end of my tether.
My best KS4 class, with 2 weeks to go before their GCSE exam. I can say with utter confidence that I have spent the last academic year wasting not a minute of lesson time, teaching them their exam curriculum, providing them with excellent resources, being really really proud of their books and content, ensuring that pupils are clear about exam dates, expectations etc. I have been in school at 6:15 every day so far this week, same tomorrow and not leaving until 5:00. Same for the run up to the exam.
Today, when starting my deep-revision sessions, I have pupils who have forgotten their books, didn't engage and when I became impatient and asked them about how much they've revised, I got told that they wouldn't probably bother because it wasn't "fun". They also told me that all teachers in our school haven't nagged them to revise (bollocks), that they didn't know how to revise (more bollocks), and that they couldn't be bothered. When I asked them how exactly they thought the work would be learnt without revision, they tried to blame teachers in general for not putting enough emphasis on the importance of revision. I asked them why they thought we set tests (because I really love marking extra pieces of work when I'm already buckling under the pressure of 380 books) and.... wait for it... I was told that "tests are more a thing for you teachers, because then you know what you haven't done". I asked them about personal responsibility, and they just shrugged. Not every pupil, but a vast majority.
I feel like a broken woman to be honest. I'm sleep-deprived and surviving on coffee to get me through the day. I am chasing KS4 pupils who do not give a shit and I can honestly say that I've delivered good lessons. Totally disillusioned and dreading results. They're my best class FFS and their attitude is frightening.
Sorry - I have to offload before I just cry.