I sort of like my teaching job, But...
I'm afraid of my year 12's. Teaching them is like nailing jelly to a wall. I want to say "Those that want to learn stay, anyone who's not prepared to do the class as planned can go to the canteen instead." This would not be permitted for obvs reasons.
I have nightmares about my form who I have been lately allocated part time. They're making my life difficult, and I am feeling at a low-ebb and so lack the motivation to deal with them and their constant getting into trouble, being on report etc. I feel weak around them - a bit self-perpetuating.
I can do the rest of my job well. I'm very creative and hardworking, but sometimes just feel defeated by the tough stuff. I'm lucky to have my job, but often I feel incredibly stressed and I don't sleep well. I keep looking for another role in another sector but then I know that any job has it's boring, tough, difficult bits, why is this so hard? I feel like a square peg a lot of the time...like I said I need a kick up the what sits. Anyone else experienced anything like this?