Anyone else feeling completely fed up already?

[mrsmilesmatheson]

Only two weeks into term and I'm already up at stupid o'clock in a state

Awful experience with rude parents yesterday with no sympathy from head at all, just made to feel like it was all my fault when actually it was down to bad time management and organisation by her.

At least 50% of my lessons have been disrupted by her last minute plans - again, my fault if I'm not absolutely delighted by this!

Data -being asked to predict and agree targets for the end of the year based on bands which have no descriptions and being asked to agree a sip which contradicts itself. Apparently we are all in the dark so we should just make a judgement (based on what?) and work towards it for the end of the year (towards what?).

Honestly feel worse than I have in a while and really don't know what to do.

I have to work, we need the money. I'm on ups and won't take this with me if I leave which would mean a drop in money we can't afford.

Am part time and feel like never going back, thank goodness I'm now at my "weekend".

How can I learn to cope with all of this without ending up in tears and looking unprofessional? My poor job sharer last night was very sweet but it was very unfair and I took up a lot of their time. I need to be that calm swan like everyone else is at work.

Am feeling your pain...not sure what to say except that I am cultivating the hide of a rhinoceros in order to deal with the daily bats at my confidence,capability and mental health from all parties as I guess it is that or walk which I am in favour of if it is that bad anyway....

Snap, class is very hard work and the assessments they came up with don't seem to be the same children! Were constantly being moderated for something and I'm working till 11/12 every night keeping up with marking/planning etc.

I'm just back off maternity leave and a new head started while I was off. I'm really struggling and I've never felt like this just 3 weeks in.

I'm hoping my class become easier as they settle and get used to what's expected of them. I've not had a class like this for years

I'm fed up at the lack of consistency in rules. It drives me mad.

You can still take your UPS with you. Schools don't have to offer it but I've moved twice in two years and both did (I did lose out to an NQT in another post though).

You sound just like me. I work in a recently-converted academy. My previously lovely school has become an awful place to work. The disorganisation is incredible. I'm desperate to leave but like you I'm part-time and UPS so worry about finding something different. Most of the jobs I see advertised are for MPS jobs and I'm not sure they'd be willing to pay extra. Also, I worry that all schools are going the same way and I'd be no better off.

However, I'm determined not to let it affect my life as badly as it did last year when we first converted. Can you plan things to do on your non-contact days to help take your mind off school? I have found that booking holidays, days out etc help as I have something to look forward to.

I know technically I can take ups with me but the chances of finding a ups part time position are slim when I live.

I think distraction is the key - keeping busy on my days off and am studying online too for a possible escape route.

It's so hard isn't it? I'm struggling a bit in my new post. It feels relentless and the children are exhausting me!

Yep me too
I worked for 2 terms as an UQT and am 3 weeks into NQT year, I've got a cold (I never get ill), have been going into school for 10 hour stints on sundays just to stay remotely afloat.
I keep getting really nicey nice advice from my head and NQT mentor to just do nothing on the weekends but if I did that the cake and arse party would be unthinkable for all involved.
Strange cult like deeply embedded institutionalised weirdness in the staffroom each day.
Gossip.
Bickering.
Power struggles.
And thats just the adults.
I don't feel my needs are being met professionally because none in the school knows anymore than I do about early years so I have none to learn from in that respect so Im just flailing around guessing and cobbling together ideas from books and websites.
I feel the pressure of being in an Outstanding school.
I'm PERMANENTLY EXHAUSTED.

How is this job even possible?

I'm wide awake on a Friday night/Saturday morning worrying about everything.

I feel like I am doing a rubbish job. Have been given an awful timetable: I think I am coping remarkably well, considering, but the politics in the school are unworkable.

I've worked out all the possible scenarios re giving notice in. Concluded it isn't doable without serious repercussions career wise.

Perhaps I'm overreacting to a bad lesson on a Friday afternoon. I hope so.

Oh badger that's what i keep thinking that I'm dealing really well despite bring up against it.. Im up silly early worrying about school- I'm just going to get my NQT year done and do something else I think (feel like a failure) but seriously Ive got a friend working in the intensive baby unit and she doesn't even wake up like this worrying.
Maybe the reason we all do is because we all want to do right by the children but we literally have too much to do making it impossible to do our best.

I wish I could say that it's as selfless as worrying about the children, but I have to admit in my case it isn't.

I've been pulled in on a senior level and paid on the leadership scale to 'raise teaching and learning' but it's difficult as while I am in management I also have to work for a head of department and I have done this role previously and I just find her awfully difficult. I know it isn't me - whenever I've mentioned a particular child I get a lot of knowing looks and eye rolls and told they are notorious for poor behaviour, yet I can't help but feel the HOD feels I should be managing better. Perhaps I'm being overly sensitive. I just really don't have good vibes. I know from bitter experience that coping with badly behaved children is fine, it's when you are held responsible for their poor behaviour that things go wrong.