I have been teaching for 10 years and always been ambitious to become head of dept (core subject and v large dept in current school). Never wanted more, strongly believed that I needed to work my way up and have done so. In September I finally achieved my goal of becoming head of dept and was really chuffed. It wasn't easy at first but have settled into the job well.
However I have last week been told that they are restructuring the leadership in the school and basically the upshot of it was that they externally advertised my job in TES this week :( but that I was offered (on a plate, no interview or anything) a promotion to a leadership post in sixth form. Higher TLR than my current job, quite prestigious, lots of potential to make impact, but probably less stress.
The problem is that I am not particularly happy. I didn't want to apply for my own job and also thought it was stupid to turn down a good promotion that was being offered to me. However, I feel as though I have abandoned my original goal of being an excellent head of dept. I feel sad not to be working with my team any more (or not as much) and am not really looking forward to this new job.
Somebody slap me please- I'm being an idiot, aren't I!
Sorry this is so long...