Only been back at school and already I’m totally exhausted. We have a Teaching and Learning audit on Monday, which involves being observed by another member of SLT and another colleague (from a completely different department).
I've only been at this school since September having had a really bad experience in my previous school (bullying by ht). I really like the school and the staff are great, but I’ve already had loads of drop ins and parents come to watch me teach my sen group for maths and English. In fact the only person yet to see me teach is my line manager - the SENCO. I’ve had great feedback so far - which is lovely, but I feel like I've hit a wall tonight and I’ve just sat trying to plan the next hoop jump on Monday and I’ve not managed to plan beyond the first 5 minutes, because I’m just so overwhelmed by it all.
I want to do well and get a good grading – but also I just want to be left alone to do what I do best, getting on with teaching. Still getting used to TEEP lesson planning as I’m used to primary – where we’ve never heard of TEEP.
Sorry about the rant – I just don’t care about being outstanding anymore – I just want to get through each day without feeling I want to cry.