I just need to get some comfort somehow. I’ve been feeding a stray cat for well over 12 years. She’s really ill now, she had flu a while ago and I took her to the vets. She got some antibiotics and seemed to perk up but she’s gone downhill rapidly. I’ve made the appointment for 10.00am tomorrow (Monday) and I’m certain she’ll have to be put to sleep. She’s old, she was fully grown when she turned up. I know she’s had as good a life as possible but I’ll miss her so much. I just feel so guilty and responsible. I’m dreading tomorrow, been in tears all day. I can’t let her suffer but it’s just so awful. She had 4 kittens years ago, I managed to trap 2 of them and Cats Protection took them in. I couldn’t trap the other 2 but eventually got all 3 of them spayed. They lived outside in little shelters and had 3 meals a day. One of her daughters got cancer and she had to be put to sleep 2 years ago. I’m just so sad for her.