I popped a message up here earlier this week. About giving my cat the summer and then letting him go. Such lovely comments and some very sensible comments that I read and took in.
I was happy with my decision to keep him till the end of the summer. But we woke up on Sat morning to him having an eye infection in both eyes which he had only had one in Jan. Also a small change in his neurological brain problem. So we have decided to let him go.
oh my goodness since then I have second guessed myself. He is still his normal self. Still eating ( even though he has lost weight )
Have changed my mind so many times today. It would be easier if he was further along I think. But my friend who is his vet said we are doing the right thing now things has changed slightly.
so we have an appointment booked next week. So for the next few days he will be having all the treats and chicken he wants.
I think it is harder as I know he could possibly be fine for a while now. But my head tells me ( and u guys ) that I am being kind to him. It’s just hard when you have to let them go too early. The guilt I am feeling is just soul destroying.
He was a cat that went through a few neighbours before he decided that we were his forever family, wasn’t even looking to get an animal. But he stayed ( with the blessing of his owner ) and never went anywhere else. I am going to miss my boy more than I can even get my head round.