How do you make the pain go away? TW PTS

[Gastonimo]

Yesterday we said goodbye to our beautiful girl Betty.
I feel physically broken. I can't stop crying, I feel sick. I don't want to be around people. I don't want to be at home without her.
I just want my cat, we loved her so much.

She was 13 and had heart failure, Yesterday she was put to sleep. We were there and it felt pretty traumatic. She was heavily sedated and was nearly gone before they'd even administered the final injection. I know she didn't feel any pain but I could feel her heart hammering and her gasping as a result of the sedation injection. It wasn't the slip away peacefully I'd expected.
I don't know what to do, I'm just overwhelmed by the grief.
I'm sorry if this is upsetting to others. I'm just lost without her.

I'm so sorry, poor little Betty. But I'm sure you did the right thing for her. Would you like to share a photo of he

Thank you.

What a lovely girl! Sending you sympathy on your loss

Sorry for your loss. I lost my boy a few months ago, he had a mass on his heart and he was PTS whilst at the emergency vet. I still miss him a lot, I still hear him jump into my bed in the mornings to ask for his breakfast. I cried for a few days, the first week was hard but it does get easier….but you don’t stop missing them.

Thank you for your replies.
Its hard to talk about in real life, as I can't have a conversation without breaking down.
I work from home most of the time and I'm dreading being alone in the house, she was part of my working day, coming into see me, always knowing she was close by.
It feels so empty without her. I don't think I've ever felt grief like this.

@Gastonimo I'm so sorry for your loss.
My boy was pts earlier this year, and I'm still struggling. It has gotten a little easier though. Would you consider speaking to Pet Bereavement Services or Blue Cross charities? They're lovely people, so kind and empathetic.
I know exactly how you feel, though 💔

Ah, what a beautiful cat she was!

I also work from home a lot (often with my cat on my lap or asleep on the sofa next to me) and can easily imagine what a massive hole she has left behind.

What a lovely cat. Of course you feel devastated, it only happened a couple of days ago. Give yourself time to properly grieve. The Blue Cross run a pet loss support service which you might find useful. Your local library probably has books about pet loss, might be worth a look.

I am so sorry for your loss. Those furry beasts leave a big gap in our lives. I lost my girl 5 years ago. I still tear up when I think of her. But we were honoured to have them in our lives. I am a better person for it. They will always be part of our lives.

im so sorry for your loss... all the best for you and your family

Thanks everyone for your kind words. I've contacted the blue Cross pet loss support. I think it helps being able to write down how I'm feeling.

So sorry for your loss @Gastonimo . I'm finding a lot of solace in these threads, our girl was diagnosed with terminal mouth cancer last week, we agreed to try pain management but over the weekend, she stopped grooming and was surviving on one packet of soup. We called the vet and asked for her to be pts on Monday. I was with her at the end and it was so peaceful, she just slipped away. I'm heartbroken now, just want her back because I miss her so much. She was such a sociable and affectionate cat, house feels empty and lonely without her.