I don't know who to talk to, I hope nobody minds me posting here. Can't tell the kids yet. I don't know what I can say to them, they are young and don't understand death. I found my beautiful girl had suddenly died this morning. Just tucked away behind a tree at the bottom of the garden. She is free to roam but always stays in. No clue why she was down there. I'd have had no idea except I'd let the dog out, and dog was going crazy at the area so I went to check and found her so still.
I didn't know what to do, so rang my exH, she was a shared cat along with her brother before H and I split, he loves her too. He's checked her over as I just couldn't, and said he can't see any signs of attack, poisoning etc. I knew she'd gone but was really hoping he'd say she was just unconscious and would be fine.
Will the vet think we are crazy asking for some kind of postmortem? She was perfectly healthy and alert yesterday, nothing to concern me. Eating as normal, purring around the place. I just can't understand. I want to know what happened.
Then exH was saying he'd bury her somewhere nice, but I don't want that, can't stand to think of her alone and in the dark, or something digging her up. My poor girl. All I can think about is why didn't I stroke her more, she's so timid and never came for hugs like her brother does. She sits with me, but away from me, and I can't recall the last time we had a stroke. Or why didn't I give her the cat treats more, she loved them. She was only having her annual check and boosters a month or so ago and everything was fine. What could have happened? She's about 12 so not old, healthy weight etc. poor girl.
Here is a picture, she is the tortoiseshell, her brother is black and white. Poor Layla, she is just the sweetest cat.