My boy went over the rainbow bridge tonight

[Mumsgirls]

My old boy Eric was pts tonight with a massive cancer. I am heartbroken. He won’t come into my room for a cuddle in the morning, he was 15 and a massive character.
He had stopped eating and despite three visits and being in all day today for tests and scans my vets missed it. They do not do overnight , so sent us to the vet hospital, it took the vet their 10 secs to find it , confirmed by X-ray.

The cancer had displaced some of his organs, so disappointed with my vets.
Only solace was he died in my arms being stroked and told he was loved. It was very peaceful and I had to be there for him.

I happily live alone, but my house is going to feel very empty. He had a perfect cat life and had me, his slave very well trained. He favourite trick was going out his cat flap and then demanding to be let in the French doors.

As he aged, I dreaded this day and wished we could have had much longer

He absolutely was not "just" a cat
He was Eric, he was your cat
He was lovely and loved

I'm sorry your vet missed the cancer - it sounds as if it wouldn't have made a difference to the outcome though

Did you manage to get some sleep?

Tilly you are right of course, nothing could have saved him, but maybe he suffered longer and had extra procedures. I know I will get another cat, as the rescues are overwhelmed, so a puss less lucky than Eric will be given a loving home. Many in the rescues, due to cost of living. I am going to take his mountain of food to PDSA.Think I need to mourn Eric first. Just sad with the vet , that I put my trust in them and it was two different vets at the practice missed it. As I said the vet at the hospital found it in seconds, so lucky really we had to go there, or don’t know when my vet would have found it. Poor love was in a bad state. Now at peace

Just got up for my morning tea and first time no Eric.
The poem posted was lovely.
Thanks again litter tray friends, over the years I have laughed at the antics and mourned the loss. The kindness and knowledge here is wonderful. Give your kits a big hug while you can.

Today I am going to get a nice frame for his photo, distract myself with housework and rubbish tv. Shortly I will remember him without the pain. I know he adored me.
My daughter is coming today and I am a very involved grandma, with loads of family and friends, who will all miss our boy.
On the other side of the bridge he will rest in the sun

@Mumsgirls

You did everything you could. These things are beyond our control.

The loss of a beloved animal cuts deeply into our soul. It will take time to heal.

Go gently. Rest in the sunshine Eric. A truly loved cat.

I am so sorry for your loss. We lost our 16 year old cat September last year and it left a big hole in our lives for quite some time. Even now there are times that I miss him when I look at his favourite chair.

You will always miss him but I promise it does get easier and at some point when you feel the time is right you will find another cat to share your life with.

He wasn’t “just a cat”. He was your friend and companion and of course it hurts to lose him. You don’t need anyone’s permission to be sad he is gone.

It sounds like you gave him a wonderful life. I hope that thought helps. Be kind to yourself over the next few days.

Just putting his stuff away. Will put in loft for when I am ready. Will probably have a holiday. When I got him cattery turned us away as older and never been in before. So always had to get family to stay. He definitely needed company, not a cat that the neighbours could just feed for a week, he got distressed if left for long. He would follow me around, whichever room I was in so was he or out in the garden.
I will get one or two needy boys to fill the cat shaped hole, when I am ready, so much need out there. As advised above I will be getting a new vet eventually, Eric was a solo , would have got another cat , but he would not have tolerated it.
Vets are expecting me to take him back from the overnight hospital at 8-30,
not sure if hospital will have let them know. Too upset to talk to them today , but will express my dismay at them when I do. We were self funding and they charged me an awful lot to not diagnose. Think they were looking for zebras when it was horses and so basic. His poor organs were misplaced by the cancer, so how can they have all missed it. The vet who found it was very certain on short gross exam and xray verified. My vets gave him steroids, anti BACS and were moving towards tube feeding and blood transfusion. All completely inappropriate. The hospital vet was so professional and caring with us and made it all bearable. So glad his last moment was calm on my knee. I owed him that.

Will continue to keep up with litter tray and all your furry overlords. Thug cat has been a favourite, but many others. Hopefully not too long before I am back in the ranks of cat slave.

the poem made me smile, I can just feel his paw on my arm. He was a very quiet cat, had got me trained to meet his needs by a look or body language. Think he was one of those once in a life times cats and a bit bitey total lap cat.
Lucky to have had him

I'm so sorry you went through that op. It sounds like Eric had a wonderful life being the only cat and the centre of your attention.
A rescue cat/s will be lucky to have you when the time is right x

Just what @TastyLikeARaindrop said