Devastated. My baby boy is being PTS tomorrow

[LittleBrownJug]

My beautiful, empathetic, gentle friend … my companion, my purring, whiskered beautiful boy.

The vet’s coming to the house tomorrow. I feel like an executioner, knowing this. Planned since Thursday when I took him in & they offered to do it then and there.

This is the worst part of loving cats isn’t it?

He seems perfectly fine, purring away. Giving me kisses. But I know it’s time, he’s got an awful tumour, among other things & he’s about 15-17.

He’s incredibly empathetic and sort of psychic. Whenever I cry he rushes to comfort me. I think he might know his time is coming to an end & I feel absolutely devastated.

sending much love. It's heartbreaking but it truly is better than letting them suffer. At least the vet came out; when we had to have my life saving, amazing gentle collie put to sleep my father in law had to drive me.
big hugs xxx

Hey OP. Just seen your update. Been thinking of you and your boy all day.
Hope you are being gentle with yourself tonight, you'll be feeling so many emotions.
Sending love ❤️

Sending love OP. I was never a cat lover until I was persuaded to get two last year. That are my world now!

My sister volunteered to look after an elderly lady in London until her death two years ago. She managed to re-home her cat in a lovely Sussex village afterwards and also arranged to have the lady's ashes scattered at the bottom of their large garden.

A year later the cat just walked one day to the area where the ashes were scattered, laid down peacefully and died. It was that story that persuaded me to get cats. They're next level...

oh @Inkypot I’m feeling so many emotions. I didn’t spend any time at all with him this morning as I got up late and then had a medical appointment. The next minute the vet was here, so I feel guilty, even though we spent so much quality time since Thursday when the decision was made. So I know the guilt is not rational. I just could have had one last cuddle that’s all.

And right now I miss him snuggling with me on the bed so much. I’m a side sleeper and he would come and climb on me and sleep perched on my shoulder. But girl cat just jumped on bed and is putting loudly & snuggling up. She’s happy to be the centre of attention methinks.

Oh bless, I'm so glad your girl cat is cuddling up.
I don't think you feeling guilty is fair. Guilt is when we know we've purposefully done something we shouldn't have, you didn't intentionally spend less time with him today. You did so much for him and ensured you were with him last night and at the end. He knew you loved him, very very much.
Don't be too hard on yourself, you did what you could ❤️

That’s an amazing story @SquaresandStarlings . I hope you’re enjoying being a cat lover now, there’s nothing like having a cat around!