My kitten died and I'm struggling

[mykittenisgone]

My little 8 month old girl was run over on Wednesday and I feel so bereft.
She was the sweetest loveliest little cat I'd ever met and everyone loved her.
I'm not in a good place anyway at the moment but she was a little light in my life she made me smile so much. And now she's gone . I saw her on the road and had to carry her away. Only minutes before she was happily playing with us. She's left behind her little brother who is missing her,. My young son is also heartbroken.
I'm trying to hold it together for his sake, and to try and enjoy Christmas. But I'm really struggling to come to terms with this I keep crying and miss her so much. I think struggle with depression anyway and now i think it's got quite bad as I'm struggling to function properly. I know it all sounds quite extreme I'm not sure if it's normal to feel this way. Does anyone know if this ever get any better and how can I move on? x

Your reaction is totally normal to something so horrendous. My heart's breaking for you. Cuddle her brother tight tonight, he'll be confused and will need you

Oh,I am so sorry for your huge loss.I think,everybody who has a pet must be so upset with you.my heart goes out to you.I am sending you a big hug and I hope with time your aching heart will smile again.all the very best for you

Would you like to share a photo of her OP? X

Please please don’t think this unkind or meant as a criticism, because it’s very much the reverse - but have you experienced the death of a human @mykittenisgone? Because if you have, try to remember how you navigated that grief process. Clearly it’s not exactly the same, but you are grieving now, which is a perfectly normal & reasonable thing to do; your kitten was not “just an animal, you can buy another”, as some sections of society try to insist. If you’ve that experience, anywhere, of coming through grief for someone, just gently remind yourself that you have that capacity to heal.

If you’ve not experienced it yourself, I’m in the position to tell you it’s like a wound - it heals, but at different rates for us all; sometimes it can tear right open again just as we thought it was perfectly fine; & it’s a rare person it leaves no mark on at all. But always - always - things become more bearable & life more liveable.

Please be gentle with yourself OP & remember to seek support if you need it. I hope you have as happy a Christmas as is possible

I am so sorry for your loss. You have been through a trauma and you need to give yourself permission to grieve, it always feels worse to suffer a loss when it's supposed to be such a happy time of year. Don't be afraid to tell people you are struggling, most people fully understand the impact of losing a pet. (I lost my cat last Christmas day and I don't think Christmas will ever be the same again but I talk about her all the time and it makes me feel better)

So sorry, OP. I lost my little 2 year old in September. He was also a particularly charming character. The pain is just overwhelming. But it has to fade over time.

How's everything today? Hope you're managing OK and little brother kitty