Serious liver damage

[FlightyBird]

My poor boy has been unwell for a while and bloods showed liver damage. I foolishly agreed to a scan yesterday. Apparently the liver is so badly damaged the vet could see his guts through the liver on the scan. She asked if I wanted to wake him up from the sedation or just let him go. To be honest, I wasn’t expecting that. Having been put on the spot I said I’d bring him home. This was the wrong thing to do.

He’s so frail and sad. He’s eaten a tiny bit of his dinner, I don’t think he’s had a drink since he came home. I’ve been up and down all night to check on him, and he’s all hunched up and looks so old.

I’m going to have to take him to be PTS but just wish I’d let him go yesterday.

Not sure why I’m posting, really. Thanks for reading.

This is my boy in his better days

to read this. It's impossible to make perfect decisions, don't beat yourself up. I'm sure you gave him a great home for many years. Hold onto that.

It’s very hard when they put you on the spot like that. It’s the shock that throws you off.

He's gorgeous. I had similar with my girl. I hadn't realised how ill she actually was until we had bloods done. I took her home to wait for the blood results just to be sure it was kidney failure, I'd decided it was not treatable due to her heart disease. And regretted it that night as well.
But be kind yourself, it's a massive decision to have to make, and even worse if it's completely unexpected. At least this way you can be with him and cuddle him. My girl had the exact end that I wanted her to have and it's a great comfort that she had that.

You did your best in a difficult situation. At least now you have a chance to say goodbye to him properly.
He's a very handsome boy and I hope you have many great memories of him.

Thank you for your kind words. I knew he was poorly but I was shocked to be asked over the phone like that. I was probably naive not to have considered it myself. Just feel awful that I’ve got to put him through another trip to the vets.

I would have done the same, OP. It's not something I could decide on the spot. You are doing the right thing by letting him go and of course you want to say goodbye to him properly.

You did what you felt was the right decision. You've got the chance to say your goodbyes, something you might have regretted if you didn't bring him home.

When they go in your just hoping they’ll be ok, it never occurs to you that it might be an end of life decision.

What a lovely, lovely cat. I'm sorry OP. All you can do is what you feel to be best for them at the time.

It is is such a momentous decision that I think it's very easy to doubt whether you got it right, whatever you decide.

Years ago one of my very much loved cats had cancer but the vet had estimated after surgery and with medication she would have another comfortable couple of years.

But within a few months she caught a cold and deteriorated overnight. We took her back to the vet and we were told it was time to let her go. So we agreed.

For months afterwards I was haunted that I had agreed too quickly, that I had let her down, that I should have sought another opinion.

But really it was just that it was a decision that we had not expected to have to make for a long while yet.

Be kind to yourself.

Thank you all ❤️
I’ve made an appointment for tomorrow evening. I’m so sad, but it’s the right thing to do. I want to give him a pain free, peaceful death. I’m scared he will go out, be confused and get lost, or hit by a car.
It’s so hard to let him go.
We still have his sister. She’s half his size, twice as fierce and as fit as a fiddle. But my heart breaks for my big, daft boy!

He will drift away peacefully, which is the best and final gift you can give to him.

It is hard to let them go but you have made the right decision. At least by having him home you can get to say goodbye. Make sure he's comfortable and warm. If he's happy with it give him some fuss.

Poor boy was PTS last night. I miss him so much. I hadn’t realised how much he was always just ‘there’. At least it was peaceful and pain free for him

It’s so painful to lose them isn’t it?, like your hearts been ripped out.

Hope you're doing ok OP. They do leave a huge hole

Aww that's sad. So sorry