Hi fellow cat lovers. I'm not really sure why I'm posting but I think I need a hand hold and possibly some advice. We got our beautiful 3 year old Siamese brothers from a rescue 2 years ago. About a month later I had the last in a series of miscarriages and they were what got me through as they were just so loving. They are the best cats I've ever known, so funny and sweet and they have become like little child substitutes. Which I always knew wasn't healthy but you can't help how you feel and they really are my babies. From meeting them at the shelter, these shy but healthy cats, to getting them home took nearly 2 months. It took forever for them to do our homecheck and get them neutered (previous family had them as indoor only and didn't get them done) During this time they both got cat flu and we're getting more and more stressed. They lost a lot of weight and there was talk of them not surviving! I basically had to beg to get them to let me take them home, which they finally did. And they flourished! Put on weight, loved playing games and cuddling me and my dp. They've both had issues with their tummies on and off so we give them special food and make sure they aren't stressed, and basically treat them like royalty, which they fully deserve! They love each other and their humans more than anything. Eek, sorry, this getting really long. Anyway, about a month ago Loki went lethargic and lost some weight, so I changed him from dry only to additional wet food which made all the difference and he really perked up and started putting weight on. Then they had their yearly vaccinations and health check a couple of weeks ago and the vet felt a small lump in Loki's stomach, he thought it was a reactive gland. I was advised to keep an eye on him and make an appointment for a scan in a couple of months. (Vet only dealing mostly with emergencies atm due to covid, we were lucky to get the health check appt.) Then about a week later my other half felt the lump and said it was like a walnut, so I rang vet and he said to bring him in. He agreed it was bigger and said he would scan him and possibly do a needle biopsy. Which happened yesterday. The scan showed the lump is actually one of Loki's kidneys which has become small and mishapen. The other kidney is also small. He also did some other tests and full bloods, and is as certain as he can be that it's amyloidosis and that Loki is in stage 3 kidney failure. Another couple of results due on Monday then we will be prescribed some meds. We've already started changing his food from sensitive to renal and he's lapping it up. So other than the weight loss he was showing none of the other symptoms and I can't believe such a happy, seemingly well cat could be so ill. He does parkour around the living room every day for goodness sake! Anyway, I'm so sorry this is so long but I'm truly devastated and don't know how to process this news. I also have another dilemma, I'm going to have to get Otto tested too as it's familial in Siamese but I don't know how on earth I will cope if they've both potentially only got months to live?!