ran over my own cat

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Haven't posted much but I'll go crazy if I don't get this out somewhere. Last thursday I ran over our cat Amber in the driveway, she died within minutes. She was around 18 months old, my daughter found her last summer and brought her home. She never went under car, we used to check all the time at first. Why didn't I let her in that morning I can't stop replaying the whole thing over and over. I was ok that night and ok for most of weekend but fell to pieces on Sunday night and haven't stopped crying since. I wasn't even that attached to her or thought I wasn't. It was just me and her home during the day and the house seems to empty without her. Kids are doing ok but ds18 adored her and I know he's hurting as much as I am but won't show it.I'm devastated, please tell me this gets better soon:(

Oh I am so sorry. That is awful.

Time will definitely help, you will start to feel calmer.

I'm so, so sorry and I have an idea of how you must be feeling. I'm now 3 years and 10 months past a similar trauma and yes, things have got better, but I wouldn't say I'm over it by any stretch of the imagination. I hope you cope better than I did (I completely lost the plot for at least two weeks), but I completely understand what you're going through.

Posting on here did help me and I hope it helps you too.

Awww, I'm so sorry. That must have been horrible. I was responsible for the traumatic death of one of my pets too. It took a long time to come to terms with.

If you ever get another cat (wait until you've had a chance to grieve, there's no need to rush into anything) maybe adopt one from a rescue that's happy indoors and keep him/her as a house kitty? You can secure your garden too so they can go outdoors, but not wander. The statistics for cats never coming home or known to have been killed by a car are too depressing.

In the meantime, maybe help yourself feel like her death wasn't in vain by using it as an excuse to raise money for a cat charity? Donate all of her old bedding and toys, litter and leftover food etc. This has always helped me when my animals have died. If you have a garden, maybe plant a tree in her memory? It's making the planet that tiny bit of a better place because of Amber, a sort of legacy.

Thank you for the kind words really need them.
I can't believe how hard it's hit me and the guilt is terrible.Heartbroken for ds too, he loved her most of all. Seeing her empty bed is killing me. She was indoors most of the time, we live out in the countryside so she'd wander out when she fancied it but never for long, she loved to be curled up in her bed sleeping.
We may consider another in a few weeks but I feel I'm betraying Amber just thinking about it.

Furry dh buried her in the garden and we're going to plant a tree there to remember her. I keep looking at photos on my phone and it's making me worse but I can't stop:( I need to pull myself together because it's upsetting the kids seeing me upset.

thecatneuterer I'm sorry something similar happened to you. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. Glad to hear things get better.

Oh Christ. I'm in floods of tears now. It's probably good that you need to put on a brave face. I don't know really. I haven't felt able to look at photos. It's nearly four years and I still can't do it.

What a horrible accident to happen, it’s always very sad to lose a beloved pet and under such circumstances it is even worse. You must try to not feel guilty, it was an accident. I don’t know what to say to make it better but I do hope it will be better one day.

It was an accident, this could happen to any of us with a car. It’s ok to be upset & cry. My mum cried more over her cat being pts than when my gran died.

She went out for a meal when gran died.

Oh I’m so sorry💐. I don’t know the right words to say to help make things better. I’m sending loving thoughts to you and your family today from Secret and her cats.

You poor thing. You must be in shock and very upset. But it’s just a horrible accident, you didn’t do it on purpose and she died pretty quickly. Try and focus on the fact that she had a lovely home with you and was happy, as will be your future cats once you’ve had time to grieve and get over the shock. You won’t be letting her down. Let another cat in need fell the void. Xx

Thank you so much, it really helps to talk about it here. I hope tomorrow will be a better day. I can't believe how much this has affected me, I was never even one to cuddle her much, that was ds but I guess I liked having her around far more than I realised. Typing this beside the fire and she'd normally be curled up on her bed besude me. The house is so strange without her and for ds sake moreso than anyone I think we will consider a rescue kitten in a few weeks time. Thank you all again for your kind words.