So I came home without him(sad)

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I came in from church with kids today and both our furry boys on sofa together(brothers,but very rare sleep side by side)
Atticus had his face into back sofa.done it before.I laugh and said daft sod. Dd2 stroke him then start scream he not breathing.I lift his furry head n lips blue but he was warm .dash vet.nothing they could do.suspect heart attack or stroke as was in great fettle this morning when we left him putting round dd2legs,no signd illness.he was only 6.dd2 was hysterical as we left vet. She wanted him cremated and ashes in box his name on(he came to her and love her best)she also has bit his fur and spent 45mins stroking him after he was gone, wrap blanket vet gave him to us in as "he hated the cold". Was such a shock,he was a rescue boy.his brother now asleep on blanket he was laying on
Other kids sad,but dd2 still distraught.I not much better.I just wanted share howuch he means to us and follow with obituary.thanks for listening.x

That's so sad for you all. So sorry. He had a lovely home and you can be comforted by that when you think of him. They mean so much to us.

wishi thank you
awspider he's very quiet.slept on blanky brother died on.we didn't pyr him out last night as couldn't bear the ritual of dragging atticus from blanky in back sofa(class dig deep jnyo the leather)-you couldn't leave daft thing in,he would howl between 1-2 to go out!! Breakfast was hard.I didn't call them in if course but his brother was seedling fir more.atticus loved to hunt and mooch off neighboyrs cats fir fooid. he ate about half a pouch wet meat(allowing brother 1 and half whilst he go to dd2 fir a fuss,then he would go back and decimate the kibble
I've cry continuously since drop kids.realise soend ore time my furry boys than humans. I regret shout at him for sit sink n sleep my bed(made me wheeze/itch)wish ud told Jim I loved him more

Sorry typos,still crying and on my phone

Oh how horrible for you all OP :-( Hugs

I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet kitty. He was gogeous and clearly loved. 💐

Sitting here in tears for you (huge cat lover & hormonal), we lost one of our cats suddenly when she was only 8, that was 5 years ago and I still get upset and haven't brought myself to scatter her ashes yet, her sister is now 13 and has a whole load of health complaints so quite often I'm in tears thinking she's nearly at the end of her time. Sending hugs ((()))

sewing dd2 wants keep his ashes in her room with a photo. She was adamant didn't want bury him garden case we ever move.she's asked a lovjet his photo in too as was suggested wear his ashes in a paw shape locker round her neck but she's scare of losing it takes off for pE at school.his brothers been in n out constant (can open front door)and ran upstairs last time came in.I follow and ges looking in all rooms.miaows at me in way o not familiar and comes down with me miaows again so i sit and jumps on my lap.I can only asume he's notices he's gone and upset.he seems sad(like when knows he's been naughty n been told off).he saw his brother as we took him to be check at vet after in case as they'd been lay together we should be concerned and dd2 was still stroking him.he was wide eyed but I didn't let him get close
Wish had now as I've read its important if poss let cats sniff around dead "family" so they aware something changed.scouts very clingy at best of times and a great communicator, he was def top cat in doors.atticus was king outside.they play fight,but never proper spat. He will feel it I think in coming days as we are

Dd2 has cry solidly since got in from school,distraught that keeps expect him comE in and find her for love.seems she told him everything and he was her best friend.she wants another chance hold him,stroke his warm soft fur and hear him purr and knead her tummy as she stroked his tummy.utterly heartbreaking my 12yo is so inconsolable

Oh dear . Bless her. I have to say, and I hope this doesn't upset you, Still- I found one of my dear boycats dead on the grass in the garden. I was absolutely inconsolable for days. I was 31 . I completely lost it and to be honest it still upsets me now 14 years later. However, I think my reaction was linked to my Mum's death several months before. Has your DD has a loss recently? Something that she can use this as a safe place? Sorry if I'm out of line. I do think though that this is one of the blessings our pets give us .

Oh I'm so sorry to read this. It is heartbreaking when they die, the worst part of having pets. Your poor DD and you. He was clearly a well loved cat so I'm sure you have lots of lovely memories and photos.
RIP beautiful boy

vinomemories yes,not many photos.dd2 took loads but her dad acvusently wipe most of them try move them to google cloud last year and she didn't take loads at once thinking we would gave lots of time with him
heman in last 8months ds bf mum die of cancer(June) dp mum in sept(within 4wks-pancreatic cancer)my dad DEC.she wasn't close any of them but its a lot of losses in s short period when we had none before that.
She responded better to his needs than any human and I didn't realise then how much she used him to comfort herself-shes admitted he knew all her secrets
5hrs sobbing solidly last night. She was saying he's special,magic.he will defrost before goes in the fire to be cremated and then he will come back to life and come home to us.scared me silly as she was adamant he can do that.I said gently sweetheart you are old enough to understand if his heart stops and he gets cold there's no coming back as he was.you get his ashes back and he's waiting in the rainbow bridge for you and even if you ate old n grey he will know it's you and come running to butt your hand and run to you and do all the yummy things that made him atticus that scout (his brother) doesn't do for you.her eyes glaze up and she repeated he's magic I know he is.I said honey you do really understand that's not possible and she screamed at me stop hurting her and got hysterical.I think go ring cruse today for advice.I am so out of my depth.she's barely slept and I can't bear yo see her so upset and not know how to help her

I think speaking to Cruse is an excellent idea Still

Been trying all am he man lines constantly busy

How about the Blue Cross Still. They have a Bereavement Support line you can call and advice on their website.

www.bluecross.org.uk/pet-loss-support-children-missing-my-friend