My old boy is going to be PTS

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My old boy is nearly 17. I've had him since he was a kitten. He had a spell of being unwell about October last year. Took him to the vets and he was diagnosed with kidney disease. Given drops and special food. He just about tolerated the drops but would NOT eat the food. I tried a few brands and thought I'd just feed him what he wanted at the age he was. He loved his food. Last few weeks he's been sneezing a lot but still eating and drinking ok. Even giving me the obligatory grumpy meow when I pick him up....... Since Friday he's really gone downhill. Not eating or drinking and nose's bleeding. His nose resembles that of a snotty toddler! And his fur is caked in a snotty bloody substance where is nose is dripping. He's not eating or drinking and is just lying in his bed. My other cat is nearly 18! She's started going off her legs too but still wolfing her food down. Tomorrow I have to take my boy to the vet. I know the vet will agree it's time. Poor boy is all bone under his fur. I feel like I'm condemning him to his death. I feel sick to the bottom of my stomach that tonight is gonna be his last one. Anyone about to give me some advice how to get thru this???? They've both been with me thru thick and thin. I'm s single parent. My friend will come to the vets with me I know I won't be able to hold him while he goes to sleep. I would rather remember him as he was. Does that make me selfish??? My friend said she would sit with him I literally know I can't do it. God I love my cats but this bit is so bloody hard!!!!!

[boredwithabrokenfinger]

Oh, I feel your pain! You did your best. Just keep reminding yourself what a lovely life he had. He was a very lucky boy to be so well loved.

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The guilt phase has kicked in today. Remembered all the times I shouted at him, he was a little bugger for scratching to be let out and then 10 mins later scratching to be let in lol! All the times he'd peed on the rug, or I'd just cleaned the litter tray and he'd poo in it. Funny times and nice memories but I feel guilty today. Looking at pics of him in the garden where he loved to be, or cuddled up in front of the roaring fire. I miss him so much. I was never happier than with my son and two cats all cuddled up in the same room. Xx

[wtffgs]

He had a lovely life and he won't have minded the odd shout. We're human and cats see us as their slaves accept us with our imperfections. There's some lovely stuff on Pinterest about the loss of a beloved cat.

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I've not got Pinterest but will look it up. Thank you Xx

[Monkeypuzzle32]

Aw don't feel guilty-my old boy is very annoying a lot of the time but he's also funny and loves me back-you gave him s great life-keep saying it and give your old lady a big cuddle x

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My girl doesn't know what's hit her haha! She was a pampered cat anyway and now that's increased tenfold xx