One of my foster cats just can't get a break...he has a serious heart condition and wasn't expected to live very long at all but he's a fighter and is now the grand old age of 2... He's partially sighted but as he's an indoor cat this isn't a problem. Few months ago he developed kidney problems but we have thankfully got those under control by using wet food with water,lots of water bowls and deliberately leave the taps dripping ( annoying but it works). He hasn't had any infections now for quite a while ( again easy to monitor because he's an indoor cat).
Problem now is that he has developed epilepsy and we can't seem to get the meds sorted and to appropriate levels. Getting them into him is easy enough after a bit of trial and error ( towel/syringe meds into back of throat/ cat milk in separate syringe to wash them down- not ideal but working). He is clearly having some sort of migraines before he has an episode and his whole personality has changed. He was an adorable affectionate funny quirky little boy now he's a grumpy bullying git who constantly picks on and chases the other cats. It awful to watch him struggle and he just doesn't 'look' right...he appears miserable a lot of the time then we have flashes of him being his funny self and I think great we have cracked it. But we haven't..he's just not 'him' anymore and I really wonder if it's selfish/unfair to keep him here. Vet says we are a long way off having 'that' conversation but the vet doesn't live with him or the other cats. I veer between this isn't fair when he is already life limited to if he isn't giving up then neither am I. I protect the other cats as much as possible and rehoming him isn't an option but I am feeling increasingly uneasy. Vet costs are covered so don't have to worry about those so they don't factor into the equation. I know people always say you will know when the bad days outweigh the good but it's different in this case I feel because of his other problems. He increasingly hates going to the vets and this stress puts pressure on his heart..he is having regular blood tests and has had to have some day stays in vets..
Has anyone got any opinions? Advice? I don't know what to do..I'm not giving up on him,he's a young cat and I'm more than happy to help him in any way I can but I don't like seeing him in pain and he's tormenting the other cats..am going to speak to vet again and see if there's anything else we can do to help him..