That I last kissed the head of my soul mate and told him I loved him and that his pain would now be gone.
My pain hasn't. I love Obie and Ophie who are great cats.. but they are not him and I have realised that no other cat, or dog will ever fill the giant Morph shaped hole in my soul. I'm not alone.. DS1 and DD2 still have moments when it's a physical pain of longing for his stupid massive paws round their necks, miss the huge lump sneaking under the duvet, always there when they needed him.
Seems so daft that a cat.. just a cat ..could take our hearts so completely.. but he did. I miss him so much and hope he is getting stoned on celestial catnip til I see him again :)