And I miss him so much it is like a raw open wound that won't heal.
I love my new babies very much , but they aren't him. They are funny and noisy but they aren't as cuddly (tend to have a quick slump , roll and purr next to me then off again) and they don't sleep wrapped round my neck or cover me completely in a big cuddle with their paws wrapped round me.
I knew they couldn't replace Morph, and I love them for the gorgeous beasties they are but I thought the grief of losing the love of my life would be at least diminishing by now. But it hasn't. I miss him at every turn. Every night when I go to sleep and he's not there wrapped around me. Every time I sit with my laptop and he's not draped across it! Obie likes to follow me round and slop down next to me, which I love, but then he reminds me of Morph and that hurts too.
I know I'm not alone.. DD2 misses him so badly it hurts as well :(
Someone kick me and tell me I'm daft. How can one 22 pound furball of a cat make me miss him, more than any human in my life?!