Dog put to sleep today.

[OneSharpGoose]

Some may remember my threads re my darling baby boy being diagnosed with diabetes about 3 weeks ago. . Posters were very kind and supportive. We went today for a scan as he wasn't doing as well as he should. Unfortunately it turns out his liver was badly damaged as well. The vet and DH and I agreed he was too frail and ill to fight this so we were offered the chance to bring him home for a couple of days and make an appointment to PTS. We couldn't bear the thought of this. It would be hanging over our time together so were able to say goodbye to him this afternoon as the vet so gently administered the necessary drugs. Im now home and so wishing I had given him a couple more days but he was so frail thin and sad I didn't want it at the time. I'll never forgive myself for letting him go so easily. I know it's pointless. I can't turn back time but I can't stop the voice inside my head saying I killed him and Im so so sorry. Thank you for letting me vent.

You did the right thing for him. Those last few days really wouldn't have been for him, they would be for you so you havent denied him anything. I dont think I could have coped with that either. Please don't feel like you have done anything wrong. Im so sorry for your loss

Awww, I'm so sorry . It's so hard, isn't it? Please know that you did the best and bravest thing for your lovely boy, and he's not suffering any more. Let yourself grieve and look after yourself.

You did the right thing. A few days would have felt like a miserable age to him, but far too short to you. A thousand lifetimes wouldn't have been enough extra time.

Oh op you have done the right thing. We lost our lovely girl in April and I kept thinking we made the wrong decision for ages but we would have been keeping her alive for us not her.

We knew we needed to put our boy to sleep and knew we couldn’t do it at the vets as he was too stressed going in and just being there.
We booked a vet to come to the house and left it a few days, whilst we wanted those few days to say goodbye in hindsight I think it was the wrong thing for him.
I will hopefully not be in the same position again but for me a day too early is better than a day too late.
So sorry for your loss.

Oh love, you didn't let him go easily. What you did today was brave, absolutely the right thing for your darling boy and one of the hardest things you could ever have to do.

I am so very sorry for your loss.

My girl had kidney failure and we kept her going as long as she had some quality of life, but eventually had to have her PTS. I agonise over whether we waited too long but if we did it earlier I would be agonising over if we did it too soon. When the vet turned up my instincts were screaming just to pick my dog up and run to protect her but having her PTS was protecting her. It's bloomin hard and horrible but it is our duty to them. This was a year ago and I still have upset and complex feelings over it. It may have been the right call but it is normal to feel conflicted over it. Time does help. Just give it time.

You didn't get him go easily. It's not a fight. No one wins if he has no quality of life. You did the right thing, but even then it's so very hard.

I'm very sorry for your lovely boy.