She half collapsed today, totally not herself, wouldn’t eat. Took to vets who found large mass in abdomen but can’t tell what it is without operating which really wouldn’t be fair. She must have been compensating for the pain until reached point she just couldn’t any more. Tail has been down all day, she just lay there as vet shaved her and did scan and cannula, and normally she’s dragging me out the room as fast as possible.
She’s had morphine but she’s really upset and unsettled and confused right now which I feel awful about, but vet was very honest in saying she wouldn’t leave beyond Monday if her decision.
Vet was really lovely and saw us last so didn’t have to rush us, were there over 2 hours in the end and although she doesn’t usuallly do home visits, only for special reasons, she said she’d come out for us, even though it’s a vet I’ve never seen before but went to because it was open so only normal costs and not emergency out of hours costs
so in next day or so it’s the final goodbye and I’m so heartbroken.
feeling so guilty that she had morphine so could come home and now she’s all distressed and whining and confused which she wasn’t before. Will sleep in the floor with her if needed to calm her u til family come and we give her so much love tomorrow.