I am so selfish

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All my life, I have believed in a week too early rather than a day too late. But with my girl, I have truly fucked up. She is so poorly, and I should have had her PTS 3 weeks ago. But I have kept her going.

Tomorrow I am going to say goodbye. Since I made the decision on Wednesday evening I haven’t stopped crying. It is absolutely the right decision, but it hurts so much. Especially as I should have said enough 3 weeks ago.

This is not my first dog, but is my heart girl. How do I let go.

I'm so sorry ❤️

You've made the decision now. You're doing the best for her. It's such a very, very tough decision to make. Please don't punish yourself for it. You've done your best and it's more than good enough.

It's so tough. Please be gentle with yourself and give your girl all the love and care you always have. She doesn't know you think it's three weeks too late. Love her and hold her and don't cry too much over her until she is gone. She needs you to be her loving owner.

Most of us on this board have had to take the decision you have been brave enough to take and the timing is rarely clearcut. Don't be hard on yourself. We're all here for you afterwards.

Love her and stay with her.

Please don’t beat yourself up - it’s so easily done and it doesn’t make you a bad owner or a bad person. Everyone can struggle with this and it’s just a demonstrator of how much they become part of the family and how much they matter to us.

You sound like such a lovely owner and someone who has really loved their dog and has given their dog the best life it could have had - hold onto that.

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Thank you all for your kind messages.

I got back from the vets about an hour ago - she went very peacefully. The vets were lovely and very kind

It’s just the hardest part. She knew you loved her. I am so sorry for your pain 💐

I'm so sorry. I lost my heart boy in January, and it still hurts as much now as it did then. If it helps, we did the same as you, the vet told us the week before Christmas that they felt he was ready to go, and we kept him going until the 17th of January. Sometimes your head and your heart don't align and sense goes out of the window. We also always said a week too early rather than a day too late, and then when it came to it, we couldn't do it. Please don't be hard on yourself about this, you loved her until the end, with every fibre of your being, and she knew ❤️ My boy will be waiting to welcome her with a cup of tea and a double chocolate biscuit.

I'm so so sorry. This is such a difficult time and we are all thinking of you!

I bet you weren't too late. You're being hard on yourself. It's impossible to know when is the right time but she will have valued the last few weeks with you as much as you did.

You've done the right thing. I'm so sorry for your loss

I'm so sorry. I can imagine the pain you hold tonight. Your pet will absolutely only ever know of the pure love you gave them please take comfort in that 💖

I am so sorry for your loss
I am very good at judging when to let my animals go BUT thats only because I got it wrong a few times first .
Its a really hard thing to do and its natural that we want to keep them as long as possible, shes at peace now OP and I hope you find peace as soon as possible too

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This is my girly photo taken earlier today. My other little dog is so stressed, she said goodbye at the vets, but can’t settle - she is looking for her sister.

So sorry for your loss - I can't imagine saying goodbye to my shadow and best friend.

She looks a real sweetheart. Please don't be hard on yourself. You don't know until you know and then you can't believe you didn't know earlier. Hold t'other one tight and remember the good times.

So sorry about your sweet girl 💐

She looks an angel!

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