I suppose this is normal ?

[Amdone123]

Had to have my beautiful pomeranian pts in April. I've been coping, of sorts. Had some counselling, and support from family and friends, so I'm getting there.
Today is my birthday, the first without him and I've woken up crying. I can't stop. My granddaughters will be here shortly for our breakfast birthday party, and other members of the family later on.
Short of plastering my face with makeup, I'm struggling to see how I'll get through the day.
I can't cancel my granddaughters, for obvious reasons but I might ask family to maybe come tomorrow.
What do you think?
I know the 'firsts' after anyone dies are hard, just didn't expect to feel like this today.

I think it’s normal. They become your world just as you’re theirs.

You only lost him a few months ago. Your family will understand if you’re not yourself and if you need time - take it. Your birthday is about you not them and family (should) understand that!

I’m sorry for your loss

@Killingoffmyflowersonebyone thank you. Yes, you're right, my family will definitely understand. I can't cancel my sister as she's bringing her grandchildren but I can cancel the rest.

💐 sorry for your loss.

They are little best friends, shadows and companions. It's normal.

However, I wouldn't cancel family, just be open and tell them that you miss your little doggy friend... then enjoy your birthday do!

@DancefloorAcrobatics thanks, I've stopped crying now and there's nothing better than cuddles with an 8 month old to make one feel better.❤️