We had to have our lovely old dog PTS today and I'm struggling to come to terms with it as it wasn't the experience we had been led to believe it would be and I guess I'm wondering where the fault lies - with the first vet who we saw the day before, with us for having unrealistic expectations, or the vet who did the euthanasia...?
Basically we were told by first vet that the appointment would be half an hour but that is mostly for our benefit so we wouldn't have to rush, as actual process doesn't take that long. She said there would be 2 injections - the first would be a sedative and anaesthetic so he would drift off to sleep and no longer feel any pain, then they'd do the 2nd injection to stop his heart.
The thing is that the first injection he didn't like much, but he calmed but he never actually went properly to sleep? He sort of did, but would stir when she came back in the room and he actually growled at her when she first came up to him after 15mins to see if he was ready for the 2nd injection, which was horrible as it told us he was scared 😢 she therefore gave him more of the first injection, but he was still the same?? It then took a 3rd (and what she said was the equivalent to what they usually give a Great Dane) to actually sedate him to the point at which he didn't get upset and actually allowed her to give the lethal injection. This whole process took just over and hour and I just feel so sad that rather than peacefully drifting off he was obviously stressed and scared and I just feel so heartbroken that is how his life ended? 💔 have we just been naive and this happens all the time, or did someone cock up somewhere? Either way, how do I move on from this without sending myself mad worrying about it?
Thanks x