Hi
I've changed my username for this one.
Last year I was in a real state , I had help
From a local animal food bank ... I was so grateful but basically I had 5 dogs , I'd taken on a dog that had been pregnant and had puppies and a couple of dogs were not keen on each other so separating them so they didn't fight.
I tried to struggle on keeping them all as I'm a animal lover and loved them all but the food bank lady convinced me I was not doing my best by them as was struggling financially to feed so many and she took the mum and pups , rehomed them to people on the promise I would get updates regular etc, signed them over to her.
The other dog I didn't want to let go of , like really didn't want to but app a perfect family came up and I was selfish to not give him the best chance of being a only dog etc etc so I reluctantly and I mean devastated let him go to the family , never signed any paperwork handing him over , I never changed his microchip to them etc , spent the whole night In tears on the phone to her telling her it isn't right and I missed him too much .. she kept telling me it was the right thing , their family was a better fit bla bla. Turns out the family sent him back and she has honed him again with someone else , she just tells me he's happy and won't give me any updates as said it's down to the new owners if they choose to or not.
Im broken , my mental health hasn't been the best and im on anti ds etc
I don't know what I can do , please don't flame me, I loved every single dog and was making sure they were all kept well loved and they'd all been health , jabbed wormed flead etc I just lost my job and left DV and was so grateful
For the help of the charity they did help a lot with dog food and even human food for me and my child last year and I promise I thanked them so much but I told her I didn't want to rehome him and feel I let myself get bullied to be honest when I wasn't thinking straight ...