When will I get over my dog?

[Nikki037297]

I posted a while ago in October when my dog suddenly passed away in my arms on the weekend before Halloween after a lovely autumn walk, we came home and she was a little slow to walk in the house so I put her on the sofa with her blanket and very quickly noticed her breathing was very different, I said her name and her eyes moved as if she tried to look at me but her head didn’t move, I put my hands on her and wobbled her and she was floppy, I immediately picked her up and lay her back in my arms. She was unresponsive but still breathing, but more so gasping for breaths, I shouted of my partner to call the vets but by the time he got through she had stopped breathing completely and her pupils had gone to the size of her eyes. I hand my hand on her chest the whole time and her heart had stopped at this point. I knew she was gone and nothing at all could be done.
In the days after I couldn’t sleep, kept bursting into tears. I got many replies on here of very kind words and similar stories and I do believe thsts what helped me through those dark days. We still talk about her all of the time. We made a Sunday lunch last week with beef in the slower cooker and talked about how she was always in the kitchen when she could smell the beef cooking and we would always plate her some up. We miss her on our walks and when we sit out the back garden which she loved to run around in, and she’s now buried out there.
I recently found out I’m pregnant and have been in bed a lot of a case of bad morning sickness and remember in my last pregnancy she knew I was pregnant and never left my side and when I got a bump she would lay on my legs with her head on my bump. I miss that it won’t be like that this time.
When wills I get over her where I’m not sat thinking about her everyday? Iv never lost a pet before she was my first pet I bought when I first left home 11 years ago, she’s been with me every step of the way.
It does feel easier now than at first, at first it was so bad. I realise I’m hormonal and that could be playing a part in. When will things be much better?

I’m so sorry to hear about your dog. We had one of ours pts 4 years ago. It has only really been in the last year that we have been able to talk about him fairly comfortably, sharing memories etc. for the first year I couldn’t even say his name or look at a picture without welling up. People don’t always understand but dogs are such a huge part of our lives that it can take a long time for the pain to lessen. Give yourself the time and space you need to grieve.

Plus, meant to say, it is probably even harder for you in some ways because you have the shock of her dying suddenly. We knew in advance when we were going to says goodbye. Your brain is still probably trying to process the unexpectedness of the whole thing, on top of missing your dog