When does it get easier?

[roseapothecary]

It has been 5 weeks and 2 days since I said goodbye to my beautiful 14 year old. I'm still up trying to finish my planning for tomorrow and I can't stop crying. I just went to get some water from the kitchen and had a split second where I expected him to be in there lying in his bed. This happens all the time.
Now I am sitting in the corner of the room I haven't vacuumed in 5 weeks and 4 days because he moulted like crazy and I don't want it to be like he never existed.
Everyone who was upset or sympathetic at the time has moved on and I don't know how to get past this. I miss him so much.

How long does it take until it gets easier?

I didn't want to read and not post, it does get easier I promise but just sending big hugs. We lost our old boy 5 years ago now and I still think about him.

I have his ashes and this may sound awful but I'm waiting for my other older dog (his best buddy) to pass so I can place them somewhere together as I can't bear for him to be alone. It's so bitter sweet owning dogs, they are such special friends and family members, I love mine to pieces.

We do have other dogs and they fill the gap and keep us busy but loosing him shook our whole family for many many months, and like you I kept thinking he was still in the house.

Sending you hugs - it's a really hard time and everyone grieves in their own way. There is no set timeframe to start to feel okay again. Just take your time and be kind to yourself