My furry best friend has to have an mri tomorrow. And then probably spinal surgery.
I am in bits. We have had her 3 years and she is the absolute light of my life.
Up till Sunday evening she was her usual crazy loveable self. Then suddenly she was in pain. Vets every day since and trying to manage her pain with meds. Trying to make her rest and keep her calm.
This evening her back legs gave out 
The earliest she can have her mri is tomorrow morning. I’m praying she will be ok till then.
She couldn’t sleep in the crate. She’s in so much pain and she’s only ever slept in a bed with me. I’ve taken the cushions off the sofa and made us a nest. The pain is so bad she can’t lay down so she’s trying to sleep standing up. I’ve wedged a pillow and my arm under her chin. So apologies for typos!
I’m scared she is going to die. I got her well again after a seriously risky op less than 18 months ago and I honestly thought her life would be better now. I’ve never loved a dog like her, in fact I haven’t really loved many people that much. Without her I would have given up on life a long time ago.
Not asking for advice really. What will be will be now. Just needed to write it down.