We lost our beautiful boy in June this year. He was young, but had a horrible illness and it was an awful way to lose him. He was also a big dog, with the funniest, sweetest personality and a huge presence in our home. I didn’t sleep for weeks after we lost him still have nights where I wake and can’t sleep for thinking of him. There are so many things I miss with him not being here and there will never be another dog like him.
For months I couldn’t see a photo of him without crying, but now when I wake in the night I go through all the pictures on my phone and try to remember the good times. I still can’t do videos though, they just make me miss him not being here even more.
We still have our other lovely boy, who I also adore, but he’s a very different character and our relationship is very different. The boy we lost was a complicated rescue and we were very close. I have had dogs for over 30 years, but have never had a bond as close as I did with him before.
Our old boy is 15 now, another big dog, so 15 is a good age and it breaks my heart to think we don’t have many years ahead of us with him either. He is being spoiled rotten and I am doing everything in my power to try and keep him strong and healthy for as long as possible.
It’s the hardest part of living with dogs, but I could still never be without a dog in my life, despite knowing I will always have to go through this eventually.