Sorry if this should come with a warning or is upsetting
My dog was pts April last year. Every now and then I think about scattering his ashes but get upset missing him then thinking of all the things I could have done differently. Basically coulda woulda shoulda
We rescued him from an elderly gent with dementia. He's never seen outside world vet pegged him at 5-7 max. He was really reactive to other dogs and possessive. We worked with trainers behaviourists ect and then general advice was more on management to keep other dogs, him and people safe.
We'd had some instances of biting and he was more a one person dog. He'd listen to me but feign ignorance with other people. We spent my entire pregnancy finding somewhere to rehome him and found the perfect collie savvy family who knew their stuff and had had dogs with similar issues.
A month down the line they returned him as his biting had escalated and was unpredictable. I don't think he could cope with the stress of being rehomed again. We made the decision to pts as I'd had the baby and couldn't manage his behaviour whilst taking care of a new born. With his biting instances and possessiveness it seemed a bad combination with a baby.
Looking at my toddler roaming around the house I know I made the right choice for my toddler. I feel guilty still that he had to be pts and there was no space in the world for him and his needs. He was so biddable, really charming and just a joy, he was dealt a really bad hand in life. I just wish we'd had him sooner.