crying:(

[LuckyLuckyWoman]

Had to have my little man put to sleep almost two years ago. I still miss him every day.

Cried driving home today, talking to him in the car, rubbing the passenger seat where he used to sit. Visualising him waiting at the door when I got back and jumping up and down.

Cried tonight telling DH about this.

Cried just now after seeing a thread on MN about what is on your lap.

I don't ever want to forget him, just hope I can remember him without crying some time soon

I'm sorry to hear you're going through this It does sound like it has hit you very hard.

Do you think you might benefit from talking to someone? The Blue Cross has a Pet Bereavement helpline which is designed for people just like you www.bluecross.org.uk/pet-bereavement-and-pet-loss

Thank you for that, I didn't know that was a thing

Who knew a little furball would get so far under your skin

I'm still at the stage where another dog wouldn't cut it, it's my boy that I want back, and that just isn't possible.

I have no doubt that we made the right decision at the right time, I just didn't know it would hurt so much for so long.

I second the advice to seek some counselling; other than that all you can do is let time soften your pain. Only you will know if and when you are ready to open your heart to another dog, but please do seek some RL support for the grief you are suffering.