I had my dog PTS and now I can't sleep

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My dog has been bad for over a year. Trashing flooding the house when we go out to work. Try and bring him with us. He howls in the car. Try and bring him to sit in the garden of client houses (luckily our clients love and trust us) - he whines that he can see us but not follow us everywhere.

Vet diagnosed back pain. After weeks on the tablets and him being back to his normal happy self, we tried a few days off the pills and he was clearly in pain, anxious to the point of being clingy (I have scratches on my arm where he tried to claw onto my lap for no logical reason other than something in his head), and despite still adoring his cat sister he was a shaky, broken dog today for no reason.

I just feel guilty. Like I should have spent every penny working out what's wrong and extending his life.

But for over a year, I cannot leave the house unless someone is there to babysit him.

I miss him already.

Is there any reason he couldn't have been kept on painkillers?
for you

I pts my dog who was in chronic pain who behaved in a similar fashion however was also terrified and aggressive with it. It broke my heart but it honestly does get better. Just know you did right by your dog

Sending love OP...how old was your DDog?

He was 10. But the breed are normally expected to live 15-20 years so he wasn't old. I find myself dreaming about him every night - where his ghost follows me to work or whatever. I'm still doing 'our' walks every day and although he drove me up the wall with his anxiety and neediness, there's so much that I miss.

I have a cat too, and they were best friends. She keeps looking for him

Looking after an old/ill dog is so hard and there are only so many procedures you can put them through, regardless of money. You did all you could .