Struggling to know when to make 'the' decision :-(

[shipfaced]

Lovely dog has kidney failure so I know it is only a matter of time - bloods were BUN 27, creatinine 370.

He was very sick looking when I got home this afternoon - didn't get up to greet me, hadn't eaten all day, kept lying down and was a little wobbly. I gave him his evening meds - fortekar and antepsin. He rallied and has been much more upbeat tonight - lots of wagging and he ate a meal of spaghetti bolognese! Now back in bed.

Earlier I had decided that was it and to book the vet for euthanasia but after this evening I'm not so sure. It was the same story yesterday. What I dont want is to end up with a dog that is vomiting, in pain etc

I am terrified of making the wrong decision and leaving it too late or asking for euthanasia too early. How will I get it right. I had wanted vet to come to house but that meets deciding the date in advance which doesn't seem right.

Any advice?

had my old dog pts on weds broke my 💔 she was very ill and had lost weight but i stayed with her untill the end 😢

You did what was best for your dog, and that will bring you comfort over time. I had to have our darling lab PTS last January, days after her 13th birthday. Even my DH was a little startled that I cried for about 3 days solid!! I told our DDs not to put it on FB but they did and I had some lovely messages from other dog loving family/friends though it took me weeks to read them. They are with us for such a short time but give the greatest gift of unconditional love and loyalty. I feel blessed that somehow she found her way to us (she was a rescue pup) and we had that love for 13 years. Sending hugs.