Jakeyboy

[Awks]

This is for me to get down how I feel, which right now is shit. Jake died about an hour and a quarter ago and as an end it was about as perfect as possible. He went to sleep with his head on my knee as the vet injected his leg. He just drooped and then went still. The kids and dh said bye to him at home (awful, awful) and I took him to the vets who were lovely - kind and caring.

I miss him already, can't bear the thought of not having a dog, of not walking him every day and not chatting to him as I work (from home). I just want to go and buy another one, drive straight to dogs trust or somewhere and fill the lonely space.

Dh and kids are gutted too and I dont want to make their pain worse by spilling my guts all over so here is where it will all be.

I know it gets better and I know it's raw but it bastard hurts.

Punter I am currently spending far too much time online mooning over looking at pictures of puppies. It's so empty here, I keep looking for him and he isn't there. Gutting.

Awks, I did that too, very normal I think.

oh Awks I have just seen this and am so very sorry for you. You know you did all you could for him, and that he was loved, cold comfort at the moment I know. Many, many hugs to you

Awk's how are you doing. Just remember you gave your little Jake a good life and loving home, that was the way I looked on it when my little Jake passed away. You gave him everything and he loved you.I have a little plaque in my garden of Jake's photo and it gives me great comfort. But just you know he was really loved. x

I'm very sorry. Our Molly dog was PTS on Sunday. She had cancer which ulcerated. Molly was 14 1/2, a medium brown dog from Battersea, she was 8months when she came to live with us.
Even though we still have little white dog, the silence in the house is deafening. Molly would be sat beside me now, yawning very loudly waiting to go for her walk.
I've been looking at the many tears website. I see all those poor dogs in need of a home and it reminds me that Molly had a good life, she was happy and loved and she loved us too, as I'm sure you feel about your Jakeyboy.
Take care xx

Thank you all for your kind words and thoughts. It's just so quiet and I can't get used to it. I miss him so much and keep thinking of all the things we did and how he loved the sunshine. I sat in the summerhouse for a bit this afternoon and thought the last time I sat in here, he was with me.

ohno and toffee sorry for you too. Molly sounds lovely and I am glad you find comfort toffee in looking at Jake's pic.

Got the bill today - it's been a full week and I bloody hate it.

I filled in the online adoption form today at the cocker and springer rescue place, just in case a perfect dog comes up looking for a new family

So sorry for your loss .