Bit of back ground: Got a border collie springer cross, bought from a petshop (I know, I know... I couldnt leave him there) Aggression and after researching I believe nervous aggression through puppy years not helped by him being the first dog I had anything to do with and me being in a less than healthy relationship which compounded his fear of men and shouting. Kicked man out, kept dog. 8 Happy (although trying at times) years of long walks, snuggles etc.
Love my dog.,
Last year we had some issues around bleeding out of bum and being sick blood, diagnosed colitis?! on and off vomiting since, eats grass when not closely watched resulting in vomiting which then results in no meals being eaten etc.
has had a strange lump on undercarriage at the tip of his rib cage, vet says not to worry although its massive and now bald and red. Noticed lately smaller lumps in gap between thighs and under front legs. Doesnt seem to cause any pain or discomfort prodding (until he realises Im fussing then gets annoyed)
Sleeping alot, off food on and off ( still begs for my food and enjoys his biscuits on a night) generally seems old and tired but is only 8.
Still acts like a puppy when on the beach, but limps after a good run cant walk more than 2 miles now without laying down all the way home but fine if running on the beach.
Ive had "the talk" with myself about when the time comes etc. Normally I am fine with death - close family dealt with without fuss, normally totally unemotional and generally very matter of fact. So why am I nearly in tears typing this?!
Im not expecting him to be on deaths door anytime soon no immediate concerns just a realisation that my puppy, isnt a puppy any more and our good times may be starting to come to an end.
In your experience will I know when its time? Will he help me make that decision or make it for me? And what the flying F do I do when even the thought of it breaks my heart?