i miss my dog :-(

[Triops]

My gorgeous mongrel died on 13 september 10, i miss her so much. She suffered from cushings and as a result died of cancer.
Toni was the best dog in the whole world, She was found on a caravan site being used as a bait for fighting dogs, a friend of my dp took her from there to give her a home but he and his dp worked full time and used to go 'raving' at night so used 2 leave her locked in the hall all day and night, so dp took her on, i fell instantly in love with her, anyone would. I just cant believe shes not hear anymore, I still sometimes think i can hear her at night coming to bed. My dp has started to think about getting a new dog 1-2 years old although im not confident that a rescue would rehome to us as we live in a flat and do not have a garden, i work full time although my dp doesnt work, i dont want to just buy a dog or puppy from a breeder. The flat seems empty without her, i just wish i could have her back again.
Sorry if the post is long, i just needed to get it all out.

Sorry to hear this, it sounds like she was a lovely girl:( I always think it's amazing how dogs can go through abuse and neglect like that and still keep their nice nature, and their ability to love and trust people again.

I think your flat with no garden wouldn't necessarily be an insurmountable problem for a rescue, would depend on the dog obviously but some might be OK with it if they were taken out regularly for exercise and toilet needs - would be worth asking some rescues anyway.

I'm so sorry. Your little girl was lucky to have you, I wish there were more out there like you.

I don't know where you are but you might like to speak to Rob at Canine99 - he may be able to help you. His website appears to be down at the moment but his number's here, together with some of his dogs.

Rob and Canine99 are here too on Facebook.

Don't be fooled by his youth, he knows hiws stuff. :)

HTH.

Thank you for your replies, yes she was a lovely girl, i loved her (and still do) so much, all that makes me feel slightly better is that she had a great life with us and was completely adored by me and dp, even when she was older shed still have a 'mad 5 mins' and thay always brings a smile 2 my face, she loved to sumbath and play with others human or otherwise!
Vallhala thank you so much for the links, ill will have a look and show my dp, really appreciate it

It's so unfair when our pets die, but I guess the love we experience while having them is far greater than the grief we experience when they've gone.

My darling puppy died on 27th may 2010 and it completely tore my world apart. I did choose to get another puppy and he has really helped me cope with the death of my other pup, Moby.
I still miss Moby and I still cry for him but I have lots of happy memories and we are building lots of happy memories with our new pup. We waited 3 months after Moby died before getting our new pup and it was the best decision for us.

Best of luck with choosing another dog. It's not easy and in no way does it suggest you are replacing Toni.

'It's so unfair when our pets die, but I guess the
love we experience while having them is far
greater than the grief we experience when
they've gone.'

Your so right kid, i loved Toni with all my heart.
Im so sorry to hear about Moby, it is devastating, I cant tell you how many times iv been in tears. Glad you are finding happiness with your new pup.
I hope soon i will also find a dog whom we can give a loving home.

Oh triops. so so sorry for your loss. but it really shows in your posts how much you ovd her. it sounds liek you gave hera agreat life full of love and care. she had a terrible start but you made sure the rest of her life was just as it should be. i hope you do go on to gave a great home to another dog in need.

Oh I know just how you feel. Our gorgeous Cocker Spaniel Dillon died on the 13th June, just a few days before his 5th birthday.

He had suffered a herniated disc in his spine and completely paralysed himself. We had him put down after thoroughly weighing up the options of costly, risky and which, according to the vet would not fix him completely, surgery.
It was heartbreaking and coupled with the grief I also feel immense guilt.

Boo- thanks so much, she really meant the world to me.

Hippi- that is so sad, im so sorry, it is awful isnt ? You shouldnt feel guilty, you did what you thought was right for Dillon, theres no way you could have watched him suffer if you hadnt of made that decision.

i have just re-read my post. i am so sorry about the terrible spelling i am badly hungover not well.