Our dog passed away last night and I feel like I've let her down

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Our beautiful GSD/collie cross passed away sometime during last night and I'm so upset. DH woke this morning to find her laying in a pool of blood that she had vomited up :(

A couple of months ago we took her to the vets as she had lost a lot of weight and was messing in the house despite being house trained. The vet couldn't find anything wrong and said it was most likely behavioural. She stopped eating briefly when each DC came arrived (they're 2.2 and 11 months) but seemed to have adjusted and was starting to gain weight back. Then out of the blue, last night happened.

I just feel so guilty. I should have taken her in more long walks, let her on the settee more and cuddled up to her every evening while I had the chance. Now I feel like I made her last days on this earth miserable :(

I don't know why I'm posting really, just wanted to get it out I suppose. DH is at work (and very upset himself) and most of my family aren't really dog people so my mum's response was "I hope you're not going to get another yet"

i am sorry for your loss, x my collie cross is getting old and i am really dreading it when THAT day comes,

i am sure your dog had a happy life, and you cared for him/her the best anyone could, otherwise you wldnt have posted on here or had the feelings you do

its horrible isn't it ? big hugs to you and your family. Sure you didn't make her last days miserable, so be kind to yourself

I am so sorry you lost her and I know you did as much as you could for her. Please don't feel you let her down and remember the good times.

We lost our beautiful lab/retriever cross to leukaemia a few years ago, suddenly and I felt like this for months, but looking back we loved him and cuddled him and he knew we adored him.

Iam so sorry for your loss, you have me nearly in tears.
How old was she? Poor girl, im sure she loved you and knew that you loved her.
Thinking of you x

Thank you for the kind responses everyone, I'm in tears again now

Tyson she was only 5.5 years old.

I feel like I've barely given her any attention since the DC were born. I should have known something was wrong with her :(

Oh you poor thing .

I know how you feel with the less time after kids thing as I have had my cat for 16 years and now have children aged 5-9 so she gets less attention/toys/photos taken. Yesterday I heard from the vet she is ill so have given her more cuddles today. I got bitten and scratched for my trouble .

It seems like it was something really unexpected that took your dog from you, remember the vet didn't find anything wrong, so try not to blame yourself.

Have a glass of wine, a cry and some chocolate and be kind to yourself.

So sorry about your beautiful girl :( It sounds like you did everything you could, and couldn't have known she was so unwell, especially as the vet thought she was ok :(

It's normal and unavoidable that you would have had less time to devote to her with a baby and toddler to look after, don't feel bad about that - I'm sure she had a good life overall and knew she was loved, dogs do know these things.

I'm so sorry :(

phee So young, my boy is 7 yrs old, staff X jack russell, I havent had much time since my kids were born, 2.7 yrs and 3 months old.
I think you have hit a nerve with me and my lad will be having a very long run 2mora. x

I'm sorry. We had to have our old girl pts in November. There will always be a part of you missing her.

I felt like this after my cat died. I didn't have enough time for him after dd was born and would push him away when he tried to get up as I was dealing with dd.

Thank you so much for the kind words and I'm sorry to hear of others who have lost their pets. It was awful walking into an empty house after the nursery run today.